Im gunna keep fighting for this, my fight to be skinny, to be perfect.
As soon as im in the hospital and the doctor comes in and tells me im dying i swear it will be the best feeling in the whole world. As soon as those words come out of the doctors mouth I will fucking smile and say thank you. I’ll go out for another cigarette and think about how long i’ve been waiting to be this skinny, in all the fucking pain im feeling right now, all the pain I’ll be feeling then. I am dying, I can’t wait to die, i can not fucking wait.
