As soon as im in the hospital and the doctor comes in and tells me im dying i swear it will be the best feeling in the whole world. As soon as those words come out of the doctors mouth I will fucking smile and say thank you. I’ll go out for another cigarette and think about how long i’ve been waiting to be this skinny, in all the fucking pain im feeling right now, all the pain I’ll be feeling then. I am dying, I can’t wait to die, i can not fucking wait.
Im gunna keep fighting for this, my fight to be skinny, to be perfect.
you are stunning. you deserve way better than anything anyone's ever given you. you deserve more respect than you give yourself. you deserve someone by your side, day and night, that you can trust and love and be loved by. i wish you had that. i respect you and even though i don't know you, i care about you and love your strength. i wish that you saw yourself through someone else's eyes. you would be blown away.
wow, this is actually the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. thank you.
Just unfollowed a shit load of people, REBLOG this is your UGW is less than 115lbs and i will follow you.